welcome fans!

Hey there! I knew it. You’ll check me out whatever it takes.

RESURRECTED

Filed under: Uncategorized — antonette-estoperes at 10:11 am on Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Alive, alive, alive forever more! *you’re supposed to sing that and wave your hands up in the air* because finally i’m here blogging my way to eternal fame and glory.

I was hospitalized for four days last week. Imagine that, four days tied to bed with this transparent wire attached to this transparent little plastic container (dextrose, IV whatever you want to call it), the contents of which is supposed to restore me back to life. I was literally high on drugs during those four days with nurses injecting something to my veins every so-so hours.

I was drifting in space the week before that because my money is running out and payday hasn’t come to save me yet. I was feeling pain all over my body, kind of a premonition of what was about to happen the next week. I was also still slightly depressed over my problems: academic, emotional, intellectual, philosophical, psychological, you name it. I have them in abundance and diversity.

But right now, I am kinda back to my old self. I am making these resolutions which I know I will never be able to achieve successfully. But I never run out of hope that someday, by some miracle, I will be able to do them. ALL.

In my next entry, I will share to you the things I learned when I was sick. You know, how sickness gives you a better perspective on the healthy life. But sometimes, the healthy life just makes you want to be forever sick so you can always have a ready excuse when the pressures of a healthy life makes you sick.

Get it healthy people? Or sick of it?

See, my dysfunctional sense of humor is back! with a vengeance.

FRIENDSTER IS GETTING BORING

Filed under: Uncategorized — antonette-estoperes at 9:56 am on Tuesday, October 10, 2006

you got that right. me, the once distinguished friendster addict, is now getting bored with my former addiction. economically speaking, i have reached the marginal utility of this product called friendster (is that correct econ majors out there?).

boring. boring. boring.

can somebody break up with someody and blog about it or announce it in the bulletin?

can somebody get a new girlfriend or boyfirend and display your mushy photos together? censored items are more exciting though.

can somebody give me a juicy rumor on somebody? and then i’ll tell the other person about it. and then the two somebodies fight because of the juicy rumor, but primarily because of me. that would be a blast!

can somebody spill a dirty secret on a stupid bulletin survey?

can somebody post nude pictures?

can somebody admit to having sex with somebody?

can somebody get pregnant or impregnate somebody?

can somebody get me out of this boredom?

can somebody give me a boyfriend? that’s more like it.

of course, it’s a joke. a half-meant joke.

i’m bored.

GOODBYE MY LOVER

Filed under: Uncategorized — antonette-estoperes at 9:51 am on Thursday, October 5, 2006

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won

So I took what’s mine by eternal right

Took your soul out into the night

It may be over but it won’t there

I am here for you if only you’d care.

***

You touched my heart, you touched my soul

You changed my life and all my goals

My heart was blinded by you

I’ve kissed your lips and held your head

Shared your dreams and shared your bed

I know you well, I know your smell

I’ve been addicted to you.

***

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my friend

You have been the one

You have been the one for me.

***

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can’t break my spirit—it’s my dreams you take

And as you move on, remember me

Remember us and all we used to be

I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile

I’ve watched you sleeping for a while

***

I’d father (mother) your child

I’d spend a lifetime with you

I know your fears and you know mine

We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine

And I love you, I swear that’s true

I cannot live without you.

***

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my friend

You have been the one

You have been the one for me.

***

And I still hold your hand in mine

In mine when I’m asleep

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I’m kneeling at your feet.

***

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my friend

You have been the one

You have been the one for me.

***

I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so low

I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

*** *** ***

this James Blunt song is the most requested funeral song in London.

it has beautiful lyrics fit for all mourning hearts.

this is my funeral song as i bury you,

as i bury my heart,

even if i don’t know how to sing,

even if i don’t know how to sing it.

death to my heart!

death to you in my heart!

goodbye my lover,

goodbye my friend.